slightly happier

so i went on my walk... i just got back and its 5:01am so anyway i did end up at danielles house. at first i thought she wasnt home... and the clues that told me she wasnt home also lead me to belive that she was out with these guys she has resently started hanging out with. any way so i called her a few times and waited... hoping she would come home so i could talk to her. so as im waiting im thinking if shes out with other guys we are probly for sure over. so to get my mind off that i read the freshly droped newspaper of one of her neibors. suposedly there is some big tado with a guy who owns the states largest trucking school. i guess he is breaking laws and getting away with it. any way i decided to hed home cause i dont know what i would have done if some guy gave her a ride home. then about halfway home i decided to turn back for i had just had what i would describe as my first apifany. i decided i would ask her for her forgivness ion any drama i may have caused and then i would give her a propostion. and that is to put me on a probational period for awhile. during witch we would be dating and she would be alowd to do what ever it may be that would please her; drink hang out with guys imight disaprove of... basicaly do anything she wants. and to prove that i trust her i would show that i am perfectly okey with her doing so... and if she was unimpressed by my level of trust for her at the end of augest i would let her go. never to bug her again. that last part about the no contact is more for me than her cause i just cant be friends with her.... i love her to much for that. anyway so i get back to her house and i walk over to her windo to see if she got back yet and... oh wow she just called me.... any way that will come later i guess.... oh yeah.... so im at her windo and i hear a beeping... its her alarm clock at 4:30 in the morning ... anyway she got up and turned it off. turns out she was so out of it asleep that she didnt heir me knocking. so she meets me at the back door and i ask her if we could talk. she said not rite now.... so after a pos i said i would let her get back to sleep. said good night and left. for som reason seeing her home made me alitle happy. any way i went home so here i am typing away and she calls me!! we talk for a minute or so ... i apologise for disrupting her morning an explain my plan and she says not over the phone. okey so when do you think we could get together and talk? ahe says maybe later today. yippy.... alrite so im gunna go now.